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The Hardest Part of Having Newborn Twins

The hardest part of having newborn twins. 
The hardest part of having newborn twins. It isn't the feeding, it isn't the diapers. It's the split attention. Twin moms, I feel you. I've been there and it gets easier. #newborn #twins #challenges #mom #parenting Team-Cartwright.com

 

One comment I hear a lot that I didn’t mention in my previous question post is I always wanted twins!  I usually just smile and nod at this.  I don’t want to open up a whole can of worms on someone that it isn’t always that great.  I don’t want to scare people off if they are expecting twins.  

And overall I don’t like to focus on the hard parts of life.  I want to be positive.  I mean, what is the point of focusing on the tough stuff?  I love having my girls.  It is a wonderful experience to be right here in the front row to watch two tiny babies who look so alike grow into their own distinct people.  

But there are parts that are hard.  Sometimes when I hear I always wanted twins, I really want to tell them No, you don’t.  

There are a lot of hard parts to just physically having twins.  Higher pregnancy complications and risks.  Increased chance of preterm birth.  Increased chance of NICU time.  Increased costs (two for the price of one is a big ole lie) of more children than you planned for.

There are increased worries when you have twins.  Am I treating them as too much of a unit instead of individuals?  What if I can’t tell them apart?  Is my singleton going to get jealous because he isn’t a twin?

There is the increase in just actual care you have to do with two babies.  Changing two diapers, nursing two babies, helping two babies learn to sleep through the night, getting out of the house with two little ones.


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These things are all hard, but you get used to it.  You get past the pregnancy and birth.  You plan and budget for two of everything.  You find people with whom to talk about your worries.  You learn the personalities of your little ones and grow more confident you can tell them apart.  

You realize your kids, singleton and twins, will never know life as being different and they will be fine.

The hardest thing is that I can’t hold both my babies at the same time.  

Oh, you can physically hold them at the same time.  When they are little you can scoop them both up to move them around.  Now that they are bigger they can crawl into my lap together.  When I nurse them they are both on the pillow with me.  

But you can’t hold them the way babies need to be held at the same time.

When you have one baby, you can hold that baby in your arms and focus your entire self on that little creature.  You can feel their heartbeat against yours and know that even if they are crying, you are doing just the right thing for them.  You are holding them and giving them your all.  

When you have two babies your attention is always split.  When I am holding both of them I am constantly making sure they are physically supported enough.  I am thinking through what to do if one of them suddenly wiggles or flings herself.  When they were newborns I was making sure I could put them down safely.  

Now that they are bigger I am making sure they aren’t trying to grab each other’s faces or stealing each other’s toy.  I’m rarely just in the moment enjoying being together, there are too many other factors to be thinking about.

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One of the biggest things babies need in the early months and through the first year of life is to be held.  Studies have shown that babies thrive with hugs.  They are calmed by being held by their mothers.  When they are teething, or tired, or just overwhelmed by all the new around them, their mother’s arms keep them feeling safe, reassured, and happy.  I try to give each girl that much needed time.  

But when I hold one baby I am still thinking about her sister.  I feel torn, holding and loving one girl but at the same time trying to look at and smile at her sister so she knows I see her too.  When I am trying to soothe one girl through teething pains, there is another who needs her mother too.  When one girl is giggly and wants her mother to love on her and look at her, her sister is there wanting the same thing.  

Your attention is constantly divided.  Yes, their father is around to take care of them.  Sometimes we have people staying with us who can help hold one of the girls.  It isn’t the same as a mother holding her baby.

I know as the girls get bigger this will get easier.  Babies grow into toddlers who just want to run and play.

Then they grow into preschoolers who are working to gain independence.  They still need their mother’s hugs, but not as frequently and not as often at the same moment.  As they get older it will be more like every other family with three kids.  

But when they are little babies they need your physical body.  There is a magical moment when you pick up your baby and they sigh and just relax into you.  All is right with the world, they are with Mommy.  With twins, that moment is shadowed by the reminder that there is another little girl who needs you just as much, and she has to wait.  

At an age when it should be all about them, when their needs should come first, twins have to learn to wait for their mother’s arms.

I wouldn’t change having my girls for anything.  Any twin mom can tell you it is the double blessing most people think it is.  But it isn’t easy, and it isn’t something I would tell people they should totally try to do.  

I may have twice the cuteness, twice the belly laughs, and twice the smiles.  But my girls only have half the full-on undivided attention, half the special one on one time getting loved on by mommy.  

They won’t ever know the difference.  It’s just their life.  

But I know the difference.  That is the hardest part of having twins.

-Kim

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Allie Moore

Sunday 24th of March 2019

I am currently pregnant with twin boys and I have two other boys aged 4.5 and 21 months and THIS speaks to me sooooooo much! My youngest brothers are twins and I remember the chaos growing up with twins so I was never someone who wished for “two for the price of one” ? so when I found out we were having twins this was the one thing that made me cry to think of, that I wouldn’t be able to HOLD them both. I knew it would be hard and that our lives would change but I also knew that we would figure out the feedings and sleeping and trying to get everyone where they needed to be and that eventually it would get easier but the one thing I really struggle with is that I will never be able give to them what their older brothers got from me as babies. I have read so many blogs of “how to’s” with twins and I just wanted to say I appreciate this one the most. Thanks mama, for putting feelings in my heart into words so poignant and meaningful.

Kim

Sunday 31st of March 2019

I'm so glad it spoke to you. I don't like to dwell on the negative, but sometimes it really helps just to let the feelings out. You're twins and all your kids are lucky to have a mom that loves them this much!

Laura

Thursday 25th of October 2018

I totally agree. I have twin boys. I used to feel guilty about not being able to hold both at the same time, but it's much easier now that they can both climb in my lap together. Still one of them tries to push the other away so he can have all of Mamma. They're 20 months now.

Kim

Thursday 25th of October 2018

It does get easier when they can climb on together. And I feel better that they can choose to sit with me or not. Although one of my twins is a real cuddler and the other isn't, so I feel bad I snuggle more with one. Mom guilt doesn't end! :/

Melissa

Sunday 7th of October 2018

Bueno, me encontré con tu blog, y me está ayudando x q así me pasa con mis gemelos q tienen 3 meses, se me parte el corazón cuando uno se queda llorando esperando ser atendido!!!. Pero aún así. El amor si no es dividido.. los amo.. si a Sido complicado con mi hija de 6 años, ya se a se siente excluida en ocasiones y lo demuestra con actitudes a no debería!! Y eso sí me angustia..

Kim

Thursday 11th of October 2018

Hi Melissa! It is so hard when both babies are crying. And it can be a tough adjustment for the big sibling too! I think time is the best thing for the older one. She needs to get used to having little siblings. Is there any way you can find time for one on one with her? It doesn't have to be big or elaborate, just some moments when you can give her your full attention to remind her she is still so important to you?

Wendy

Tuesday 29th of May 2018

My twins are 27 now and one is pregnant with twins due later this year.. i loved and identified with what you wrote. I found it even harder as one twin was unwell so needed more than half of me...

kimcartwright

Tuesday 29th of May 2018

Congratulations to your daughter! Yes, it is so hard when one needs all of you and you can't give it. Or both are sick and have to share my arms. That is still the hardest part even at age 2. Thank you for sharing.

Lindsey

Monday 24th of April 2017

I wish I found your blog a year ago! I have a 2 1/2 yr old son and twin daughters who are now 14 months. Everything you've written from finding precious time for each of 3 kids, sleep training 2 at the same time and the tremendous amount of Grace and communication needed within our marriage, couldn't express this year for my family any clearer. It feels good to know someone else has been through the challenges and of course all the blessings as well.

kimcartwright

Monday 24th of April 2017

Thank you for reading and commenting! I'really do think it helps so much to talk to other moms who have been there when dealing with twin life. It's a crazy adventure, and has double the blessings for sure. But it can have double the challenges. Keep up the good work with your three under three! I only had to deal with that for six months. You're one tough mama!

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